I know this is another of those topic of Suicide.  But do read the follow chick book on No Fear:

http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0052/0052_01.asp

I know two people in my life time that commit suicide and never had a second chance to undo the suicide. One was my roommate at Gallaudet. He took overdose of anti-depression medication.  He had a second thought after he took them. He went to the Student health clinic to try to pump out the medication only to lead to a heart attack. He did not even think twice before he took the overdose. Once it was done, he was way too late.

The second person I only a little about but he jump off a building in New  York City. He was a NTID student but he did not change his mind once he made the jump.

So as the chick book says, neither of those two people had no second thought what would happen on their judgement day. I sure hope their names were in the Book of Life but if not, that is the choices they made.

There two other things about suicide I want to talk about. But the first one is how sad the children in Iraq that are age 13 and 14. They are being taught to become suicide bombers in the name of Allah.  Allah isn't a true God and here is a chick book to prove that:

http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0042/0042_01.asp

Is it really worth doing all those suicide bombing thinking they will go to Heaven? It is sad to see those things going around. God is teaches Love and not hate. God teaches to enjoy life and not kill others or do suicide.

The second thing about suicide is that I am not afraid to say I thought about doing it myself in the past. They were only thoughts but no actions or attempt to do so. I am not embrassing at all to mention this. So what stop me from doing it?  My Father and other people around me that loves me stop me from doing it.  I know now that thinking about it isn't the solution to the problem. I have Cerebral Paly, hearing impaired, seldom get Asthma attacks, hig blood pressure and Ezcema skin problem. Oh, it is no fun to have all those things. Having all those things are challenging. But do you know what? No matter how many of those things I have, they are all a test from God. But I can live and deal with those things instead of committing suicide. To commit suicide is to fail the test that I don't accept those things that God gave me.  But that is not as worst as the story in the bible about Job.  Job was a man that had everything. God gave the Devil permission to test Job to see if he had faith in God. Job loss everything and his life became unhappy. But he forgot one thing that God was with.  Once he realize that God was with him, he had won the faith and trust in God.  I too do the same thing. I have Faith and Trust in God. Nothing and I mean nothing is going to take that away from me. I know that Jesus Christ died on the Cross for our sins and that Jesus Christ loves us. I already believe in Jesus Christ and accept him as a Savior. To commit suicide, that is against God laws and God would be very angry at me if I ever do it.

So before you or anyone thinking of committing suicide, pick up the phone and call 911. That is a life and death matter. There is always someone that wants to help you and wants you to live.  You should live for the those who really care and loves you.   Even go to the Church and talk to the Priest, Pastor or whoever in Church. Have the person help  you get through your problems.  Turn your life over to Jesus Christ and accept him as your personal savior.  Jesus wants to help you and wants to travel in your heart. He is always a prayer a way.  Pray to him and he would love to hear from you.  Ask him to gude you to a better life and to enjoy life while you are alive. You will be a happy person knowing your life is vauable to others and that you enjoy life.  Life has so much to offer on Earth until God calls you home.  Suicide is not the way to go home to Heaven and it will never work. Again, go get help before it is too late. 

Attention all shoppers and attention all Bloggers, please take your time read this very important blog because it really happen and ashamed or upset to see this happen in public.

Yesterday (July 17, 2008) which was a Friday, I saw something that happeneed in Walmart that I wish I did something but I didn't. This true event happen in Walmart, in Alexandria, Va on Richmond Highway. Why am I giving the exactly location of Walmart? Because what I saw happen isn't make up and is a fact as a Witness that I saw this.

Here is what happened. I was with my family in the Card isle. I was waiting for my family to help my daughter pick out birthday cards for her friends that she will be going to birthday parties.  One that already happen today and one more next Saturday.  Anyhow, while I was waiting, I saw ths family walked into the Card isle as not to buy a card but they were walking through to go to another location in Walmart.  The father and a little son was walking in first through the isle.  They were walking ahead of a Mother and daughter.  As the Mother and daughter was walking into the card isle, the mother was yelling at her daugher about something. They were only about 5 feet away from me.   As I was watching them, the mother snapped really angry at her daughter. She took her right hand and swing it to smack her daughter in the head. I can hear the slap sound that the mother did to her daughter. Her daughter was a teenager and was about the same height as the mother. That is a very easy height for the Mother to smack her daughter in the head.  The daughter was a little scared after being hit in the head but she did not cry or scream at all.  The mother yelled at her daughter a few minutes more after hitting her daughter. They then walked of to the end of the card isle. The husband did not watch what happen but was waiting for his wife and daughter to catch up with him and the son.

After they left and even right now as I am writing this email, I am extremely upset to see something like this in publc. What the mother did to her daughter is abusing and assult.  I should have stepped up and ask the daughter would she like to press charges against her mother for what she has done.  I am a witness that clearly saw what happened.  That is not normal to see in the society. If I had her mother arrested, I would ask the court that the mother takes Angry Management course.  Hitting her daughter was totally wrong.  Why? Because since she hit her daughter, her daughter will remember that it was okay to hit someone on the head and may perhaps do it again someday to a friend or to her own children in the future.

If I had it my way, I was dead serious to have the mother arrested and be force to take Angry Management courst. Why? Because in Angry Management they teach people how to calm down, how to handle their anger, how to look things in the child point of view and how to deal with anger as that alcohol is not good to have with anger.  She really deserve to take that course.  She will hate me for interfering with her situation and so would her husband.  But in a long run, she will thank me for learning how to look at things at the child point of view in any situation.

Children are like a computer with basic progam in their mind.  From birth to the age of 18 years old or when the child leaves home, they look up to their parents to learn about different things. Everything from birth to graduation from high school, the child looks up to their parents to learn about how to be in good behavior, how to be responsible in life and so on.  Like as the mother hit the daughter in the head, it teaches the daughter that it was okay to do that to others. That was a wrong message the mother was sending to the daughter when the mother did that.

Sadly, this happen anywhere in the society and it is not acceptable. Since I did not interfer with the situation and she got away from it, she will have to answer to God why she did that on her judgement day. What she did was not love at all.  God watches and record everything that happen in life. I know we all have free will to do what we want to do in life. God did not plan the mother to hit the daughter in the head. I don't know why God wanted me to witness this. But it happen and I did not react.  It is a crying shame.

If you ever seen anyone do these things, do ask for the store manager about it. That is what I should have done. I don't care if it was a simple snap or none of my business but it was totally wrong.

Just about every where I go, there is somebody mad or even me mad or angry.  You can see it when other people driving, in the shopping center, in the malls, in the theaters, in the restaurants, at work, at home, at parties, or wherever.

It is a crying shame and I can admit I even yell or get angry with my family for no reason at all. No physical anger but emotional anger.  It is not good to do it with the family or anywhere including driving.  All it would do is relase some steams and increases someone else to get angry for no reason like bad influences.

Anger is a diseases that nobody deserves to have and even me.  It can cause bad health problems later on like a stroke, high blood pressure or even a heart attack.  If it leads to a heart attack, then how do you answer God for that heart attack. God will ask you why you build up all that anger to lead to the heart attack?  Of course God has anger but he knows how to handle anger.  Do we know how to handle anger better than God? The doctors will ask us why do we have anger? The Bosses will ask us why are we so angry at work?  The boss could do three things: tell you to go home for the day to cool off the anger; go take a vacation for one week starting now to cool off the anger, or third which is worst, the boss can fire you for be angry for no reason at all. The boss does not like to see any employees angry all the time for no reason at all. It is not good to have in the workplace.

So what can you do about being Angry and how to handle being angry.  Here are a few ideas:

1. Contact the local hospital and ask if there is a local community service you can call to go attend to Anger Management Course.  There are people in the course that are required to take it from a court order and there are others who are talking it to help themselves. I took Anger Management Course because I had a lot of anger.  It is a very handy course to take.  You would have nothing to be embrassed about because you will find others who have some kind of anger as the same as yours and it is a perfect place to learn from others as well.  Don't be ashamed to take it.

2. Ask your boss or church person for referral to a counselor to help you with your anger. If the priest or the pastor wants to counselor you, do use the person. The church offer the service for free. But if you use the church, do pay a good donation to the church to thank for the service.  Sometime the company if you ask the boss, the company will pay for the service for you. If not, pay for the couselor out of your pocket. So you throw money to pay for the counselor, you will always have someone to give you advise or help with your anger. Who ever you pick will keep it confidental and not share with others.

3. Talk to a family member or a close friend about your anger. They could listen and give you some advise as well as support. But if they don't want to give you good advise or give you support, conside doing either one of the first two suggestions I listed above.

4. Take a vacation and clear out the anger. It is could help you think about how to handle the situation better and it is sort of a time out fo you.  Use it to put yourself in the other person shoe that you were angry with.   You can get two points of view on that by yourself and think of a better way to improve things and getting the anger under control.  If after you come back from vacation and you still not over the anger at work, consider quit the job and look for a new job.  A new job will bring new faces and a different environment.

The last suggestion is to pray to God for help with your anger.  God is always available 24/7 means any day and any time of the week to listen to a pray from you.  God loves you and will always be there for you.  Praying to God is free.